Perous Secret Diary - Keep Out - September 04, 2020

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psycho semantics

or as the 'new fast automatic daffodils' didst write, 'exit body exit mind'

i'm a regular at the local doktor's surgery despite the covid-19 restrictions

(not quite as bad as my accident prone dad who needs a season ticket for A&E)

last week i was seeing a(another) physio who told me the pain in my back is neurological and that i need to think about the pain in a different way.

this is hard to accept as i am not in pain when i am lying down or taking drugs

if it was all in the mind, would either of these solutions work?

i stopped taking the course of anti-depressants they prescribed me (for their nerve numbing properties, not because i'm depressed)

unfortunately as well as numbing nerves, they also numb your BRAIN: after a day on them i was zombied-out

i'd rather feel pain and be able to think: wasn't looking to go into stasis.

last week i was having bloods taken: results in 3 weeks

today i went to show a doctor my nuts, which was kinda embarrassing

but the good news is...he doesn't think i have testicular cancer

GOOD NEWS but i'm BORED of BACK ACHE

count yourselves lucky i got a nice shot of the surgery floor: today's picture coulda been less easy

Perous Secret Diary - Keep Out: September 04, 2020